Leo New Moon: Filled With Your Own Light

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I began my life as a musician at the age of 12, singing with my cousin. I was a shy little Leo; she was a slightly older, brash and unafraid one, with a full-throttled voice. It felt natural to let her take the lead, while I mastered harmony. Harmonizing came so naturally that it never occurred to me to wonder why I felt so much more comfortable singing counterpoint to someone else’s melody.

My cousin eventually lost interest in performing. She didn’t need a stage; her personality and charisma were so big that she commanded attention simply by walking in a room. She would never be a harmony singer, drifting through life as a satellite, reflecting another’s light. But my Leo self was undernourished, so I kept performing. Unsure that I had any light of my own inside me, I needed lights upon me in order to be sure I existed at all.

Eventually, I learned to command a stage. It became the only place where I felt whole. I felt that way for a long time, though as the years went on I performed less and less. I still picked up the guitar occasionally, but more and more I glimpsed myself in my boring office jobs and bad dates, good friendships and happy hours, and eventually, a new career in astrology. Then, just before my thirty-second birthday, I got married. And just like that, after twenty years of guitars and clubs and recording studios and awful gigs and great ones, I suddenly found that I’d lost all interest in performing as a musician. Sharing my life with someone who liked me—plain old everyday me—I no longer needed spotlights to know that I existed.

I wish that were the end of the story, but getting off stage was just the beginning. I may not need performing in quite the same way, but I suppose I still need more attention than the average person; otherwise, I wouldn’t have published books or kept a website going for all these years. And I’ll admit that I still have a tendency to gravitate toward people with big personalities, who talk a lot, or who don’t mind driving the agenda. You know why?

For one thing, it’s easier to be a satellite than it is to be the Sun. It’s easier to respond to what someone else is doing than to initiate action on your own. It’s easier to let someone else fill the conversational void so that you don’t have to come up with something to say, easier to yield the floor to someone than to claim it for yourself. It’s easier to let someone else be the Leo, commanding attention and respect.

And it’s not just easier – it’s safer. If you’re singing harmony with the world, you can blame the melody if people don’t like the song. If you’re creating what someone asks you to create instead of what your heart tells you to, you have someone to blame if people don’t like the finished product.

If you don’t let the world see you, you can’t be rejected.

So yes, it is safer and easier to be the satellite. But it’s not what you came here to do. It’s cheating.

There is only way to detach yourself from the gravitational pull of larger satellites, and that is to place yourself at the center of your own solar system. Be the one who sings the melody. Write your own stories. Tell a joke at dinner and risk having someone step on your punch line. Wear the quirky outfit that makes you feel beautiful. Cut your hair the way you like. Go after the job you want instead of settling for the one that’s offered. Choose the restaurant where you want to have dinner; order what you like.

You may doubt it, but this Leo New Moon – and the big, Leo Solar Eclipse later this month – have news for you: you are not a satellite, not a reflection of anyone else. You are the Sun, filled with your own light, golden and warming, spilling out around the edges when your guard is down. When you laugh, your eyes sparkle. When you speak from your heart, you’re thrilling to behold. Just look at you.

You are filled with your own light.

© 2015, 2017 April Elliott Kent

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22 Responses to “Leo New Moon: Filled With Your Own Light”

  1. Bernard Charles

    Omg I so needed to read this! I have been interviewing for jobs and this week shall be the week I feel the power of my own liquid light! Thick and sweet like honey!

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  2. Tina Laue, L.Ac.

    Oh April. Your writing is so beautiful and so wonderful and so perfect. Thank you for another piece of beauty translated from the LOVE that exists beyond this illusion.
    XO

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  3. Christine

    Happy Leo month lions/lionesses, my mane driving me cray cray, going for a make over, been hibernating with all those planets in water n cancer, up n prowling, the Leo light is sparkling, woohoo

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  4. Sylvia Bogart

    I can relate to this, although, I have never been able to follow anyone, I know what it is like to be followed in many ways, as a “Mountain Lion” I don’t care whether anyone is following me or not, but I have always had those who do, and sometimes it seems as if they cannot do enough for me, I have learned the curious danger of this, hindsight being 100%, the majority who do this do not even like me, or even know me, as a person. They are drawn to the energy. When the energy goes in a different direction, so do they. I get what you are saying about changing directions. Thanks for sharing.

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  5. Lavanga

    This was truly beautiful to read. Inspired to let my Leo hang out all over the place!

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  6. helen

    Heeey great article….. ya totallly let your light shine…. though i disagree about singing harmony (though i love both lead and harmony and knowing all the parts.. my only failure is remembering the words, ha ha) – i think harmony is like the buttercreme icing on the cake, the salt in the soup…. the ketchup on the fries.. wait must be dinner time… ciao!

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  7. Lesley

    Brilliant! You just kicked me in the butt. Thank you. (Natal Moon conj Pluto in Leo.)

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  8. Katrina

    Does anyone ever tell you that your blog posts seem to be written especially for them? That’s occasionally the case for me, but never more so than this one. I’m a reluctant Leo who struggles constantly with an unwillingness to step into the spotlight. You’ve given me lots to think about and chew on during this coming moon cycle. Thank you!

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  9. Chris Klein-Goss

    I loved your insights into the Leo part of each of us. With a 6th House Libra Sun, I’ve always wanted those I love to be the Light, while I basked in reflected glory, and we all ‘played nice’. Now, I am a widow, grown children far away, and I am polishing my own lamp and living alone for the 1st time ever. I try to make a point of loving the gift of each day, and each creative thing I do to be happy. Would like a companion, but no more marriage or cohabitating, I feel the need to be the center of my own Universe at this point on my journey, in the seasons I have left. Thank You for shining your light on my path.

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  10. Kit

    Thank you April. Loved this blog. I so enjoy your insight and interpretations of the Big Sky!

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  11. Rain

    Thank You! I was born with Leo Mars Rx on my IC. I am now learning to step into my light and out of others shadow. At 54, my life shows a newness like never before. I know now why others look up to me. Before I thought I had everyone fooled because I could not see my light where those could. I embrace this eclipse cycle with the Pride of a Queen. Kind and Playfully Leading.

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  12. Ann Raabe

    Like you, April, I too am a shy Leo. I turn 60 next month, and with great panache and quiet graciousness, am emerging, gliding over the savanna with my black tufted ears alert and my great paws padding Mother Earth with resolute beauty and calm. HA! Nothin’ wrong with MY big ego-:)! Arggggggg, ROAR,ROAR,ROAR!!!!!!

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  13. Trish

    A very heartfelt message that resonates with me on so many levels. You are the gleaming jewel in the astrology world with loving messages. This was one of the best. My child is a triple Leo and no longer a child. He has grown in to his glory and it is so rewarding to see him be acknowledged. Thank you for the post.

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  14. Marcia

    Well, you did it again! This is wonderful and right on! It does feel so good to let your own light shine…….don’t THINK about it just respond to life as it comes with all its changes.

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  15. Sandra

    Thank you for this article and for ‘The dough also rises’. The ideas in your articles are very ideas of the Leo season!
    I’ve been thinking about both ideas yesterday: that I have not to rush at work and things to be done at once if I don’t have enough physical resources and that I need to stop avoiding to be the Sun in my own small solar system organizing my affairs in my own ways if I don’t want to remain just a satellite, a resource, and a function in the other’s systems.
    Though it seems to me that Leo is not only about shining it’s own sake but about being one of the stars and about being a light, warmth and gravitation support for other wandering stars.
    Actually this new moon is in conjuction to my natal Mars (and opposition to my Saturn) and so coincides with my Mars return.

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  16. M

    Wow………I have north node in Leo. Boy have I been a great satellite most of my life. Thank you for this. I burst our laughing in a few places as things hit home 😂 I know it’s time to step all the way out from behind the curtain .

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  17. Gia

    Thank you, April, another thought provoking article on the sign that I have the most karmic ties to – Leo. I have no Leo in my chart but I’ve found myself in recent (and not so recent) years) surrounded by them. In the past two years I have tragically lost a Leo who was my soul mate and the others I systematically cut from my life. I find that one intense Leo in my life now is enough, my daughter, my first-born child. But I could never understand why Leo gets under my skin and has the most lessons to teach me. Perhaps it’s my heavy Scorpio/Taurus and packed 8th House. But the nodes now being in Leo/Aquarius have a lesson to teach us all and you hit it right on the head when you said we are, each one of us ‘the sun’ something I struggle with as I prefer to recede into the background. We aren’t reflections of anyone else. We are the light, and have the courage to truly shine as our authentic selves. The BEST lesson from Leo. Thank you for this reminder.

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  18. K

    Very nice aricle,ofcourse not only for leo people.Sometimes being satelite just means that you go a step behind voluntarily ,to give space to others who need spotlight more.Sometimes you realise that spotlighted areas are not always important,rather than a source of vanity and self ego feeder…choosing to be satelite, not cause of fear, but conciously, can help you become free…

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