My essay
"Marriage by the Moon" appears in Llewellyn's 2011 Moon Sign
Book, available now!
Virgo
Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse Reflections:
The Wheat and the Chaff
by April Elliott Kent
I have
a confession to make: I don’t hold a very high opinion of
popular culture. I prefer the gritty dramas of HBO to reality
television, independent films to big-budget action movies,
and Charlie Rose to Oprah. I loathe shopping malls, chain
restaurants, and Starbucks. I’ve never been on the Atkins
diet and stubbornly resist self-help crazes.
My
name is April, and I am an elitist snob.
In my
defense, Virgo was prominent at the time of my birth.
There’s often an air of exclusivity about Virgo’s passions,
and a faint curling of the lip aimed toward anything embraced
by the masses, be it monster truck shows, Britney Spears,
or Olive Garden. Virgo is the sign of discrimination,
of separating the wheat from the chaff, the great from the
mediocre. At its best, Virgo is the keen-eyed editor who gives
your manuscript the once- and twice-over, checks your facts,
and helps you tighten your prose. But when it veers over to
its shadow side, Virgo is like mean-spirited judge Simon Cowell
of American Idol, who relishes pointing out the inadequacies
of each contestant in as insulting a manner as possible.
Born
with Mars, Pluto, and the Midheaven (the career point of the
chart) in Virgo, it’s far too easy for me to connect with
my inner American Idol judge – though the usual target
of my sneering is myself! But Virgo’s opposite sign, Pisces,
hardly makes an appearance in my natal horoscope, and the
acceptance, oneness, and collective culture that it symbolizes
are foreign territory to me. Whenever I’ve found myself drawn
to anything that is celebrated by vast numbers of people,
I’ve had the uncomfortable feeling that I’ve wandered off
course and betrayed my true nature.
So it’s
ironic that when I finally wrote a book after eighteen years
as a professional astrologer, it was not a technical handbook
geared toward the astrological cognoscenti. Rather, it’s a
light volume about the astrology of marriage, based on the
twelve signs of the zodiac and geared toward a general audience.
That’s right: The masses.
I knew
that in writing such a book I risked ruining any reputation
I’d earned as a "serious" astrologer and would likely
meet with everything from indifference to rebuke from my colleagues.
"Sun Sign" astrology (based on the twelve signs
of the zodiac), such as daily horoscopes in the newspaper,
is widely reviled by professional astrologers as simplistic
and misleading. I’ve often stood alongside that elitist mob,
lobbing hand grenades at popular and wealthy Sun Sign columnists
and authors from the sidelines. So I thought long and hard
about it before taking this step into popular, mainstream
astrology.
And to
be honest, I’m still a little conflicted about the decision.
The purist in me whispers that I sold out, that I let
myself down by pandering to the masses. My inner Simon Cowell
jeers at the gentle little book with the girly looking cover
and breathless jacket copy.
But here’s
another confession: Now that the book has been published,
I’ve fallen a little bit in love with it. A few days ago I
even celebrated my literary offspring with a party, which
was attended by a few astrological colleagues but mostly by
friends with little or no knowledge of astrology. The women,
nearly every one, grabbed the book, cooed and exclaimed over
its cuteness, cracked it open to read a page, couldn’t put
it down. Even a few of the men pulled me aside and confided
that they’d read the chapter about their own marriages and
that "it was as though you’d bugged our house."
And you know what? After all those months – years, really
– of preparation and writing, it felt good to get that reaction.
I was happy to see my little baby so warmly received.
The next
day, I found myself imagining that I had instead written the
book my purist, Virgo side would have preferred – analytical,
carefully footnoted, and sure to win the respect of my astrological
colleagues. My friends still would have come to the party,
celebrated with me, and applauded my achievement; but how
many would have grabbed it and squealed, or bought copies
to give as wedding gifts? How many would have remarked, as
a friend’s mother did, that the book made her "want to
learn more about astrology"? Maybe, I thought, it’s
not so bad to create something that lots of people can enjoy.
This
Wednesday’s lunar eclipse in Virgo marks the end of
a two-year journey of eclipses in Virgo and Pisces, concluding
a voyage of awakening to the themes of purification, healing,
and ultimately acceptance. For two long years, we’ve walked
the tightrope that uneasily tethers Pisces’ compassionate
acceptance of things as they are, to Virgo’s discernment and
desire to make things better. How, our Virgo selves wondered,
can we celebrate a spirit of loving connection to others -
the masses - without diminishing our high standards? To which
our Pisces natures rejoined: How can we connect with others
with a high level of craft and artistry without crushing ourselves
– and others - under the weight of our own perfectionism?
The crisis
period of eclipses in these signs now gives way to an important
showdown building between Saturn in Virgo and Uranus in
Pisces, culminating in an opposition between the
two planets on October 26, November 4, and November 14.
The whole world balances precariously between old forms and
new. Collective consciousness seems to be straining to find
the right balance of refinement, heart, wisdom, and good judgement.
Fittingly,
I haven’t yet found that balance myself. For two years, I’ve
observed my Pisces friends closely, trying to understand the
elusive quality that fuels their warm-hearted popularity,
generosity of spirit, and love of Desperate Housewives.
I’ve battled the demons of my own judgements, snobbery, and
unrealistic expectations. I’ve reached toward my elitist Virgo
Midheaven, and instead produced a sweet little cupcake of
a book that sprang from the soulful, collective longings of
my Pisces fourth house, the house of home and nurturing, the
primordial birthplace of everything else in the chart. And
I’m left wondering: have I failed Virgo, or made friends
with Pisces? Or something in between?
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